There has been lots of shit thats been goin on.
I dont know where I would start. It is late now but I will be back later to update.
I promise!
Alrighty.
Well hi everyone...
Im sick.
Im miss josh so much.
I havnt talked to him since all that shit happend.
I feel better about it all but it still sucks.
Uh... Stuff between Marilyn and Brad that was very intresting.
I get stuck in the oddest positions.
Why do relationships have to be so difficult.
I dont want to give up.
I want to hold on.
I love him so much.
I am sending him a letter/birthday card within this week.
So yea.
Thats about it for right now.
Me: I dont know if Josh is mad at me or not but it seems that way
Me: Um... We found a lost dog like a week ago and josh took it to his house to watch. just today the owner called for it. I told her to call there and when she did joshs sister told her that the dog had been taken already
Jaggedwrench: Me: Then she called me after the woman had called there and told me that I needed to keep my mouth shut so they could keep the dog. I was like fuck no the dog is going back to its owner,
Me: Its the right thing to do. If I had lost my dog I would want it back. Plus the owner has already been told that Hey the dog is still there, right. So Megan cusses me out and I fucking get hella pissed and start crying and shaking(cause that is just what happens when I get really pissed. I get it from my mom). I was talking to josh and I guess he was the only one in the house that didnt give 2 shits what happend to the dog and was caught up in the middle.
Jaggedwrench: Me: I feel awful about that btw
Me: And I couldnt talk anymore so I gave the phone to my mom and she was talking to josh. We finally got them to just give the dog to us because my mom was threatening with the ASPCA. She would have called and would have got cops ver there and they do not need that. But when I was talking to Josh he ended up yelling at me cause I think he had it coming from each and every way. And It just scared the shit out of me.
Jaggedwrench: Me: Then after that was all over and Iw as going to go get the dog I called back and asked for josh. He didnt want to talk to me. Megan told me he didnt want to talk. and wouldnt come out to see me when I got there. And megan said that their mom doesnt want me to come to the house or call anymore.
Me: I guess Im making too big of deal out of it but I am angry and I cant talk to josh
Jaggedwrench: Me: And before all of this I was in a farly happy mood
Well I have been taking Japanese in school. Its pretty awsome execpt for the teacher.
Bleh Well that is just random. I though about it out of the blue and thought you all would like to know.
Probly not but still
Well I have been so scared latly about my and my boyfriend.
I am like afraid we might break up or something.
Everyone seems to be in a fad of breaking up.
That just kinda scares me.
With all my friends at the moment it is the
Guys
Breaking it off with thte girls.
Josh has told me no its not going to happen
but
What if.
I hate thinking about it but he makes me the happiest I have been in my
entire life.
Yea yea I know all of you that are a lof of you
are going to say.
"Well honey, you have a long life ahead of you."
Well what if my life is ment to be with him huh?
I hate that.
What if I dont life till next week.
I look at things like that.
As if we are going to die tomorrow.
I hate when people look so far ahead.
So sum things up
I am afraid
Well hi there!
I am having a pretty sucky month.
I have to move.
Dont have a place to move.
Have to be gone by the first.
Bleh.
Havnt seen Josh.
Miss Josh.
I might have to live with my dad for a little bit.
I hate diane.
Um.
I have been gaining weight.
There is another issue.
Im not going to bring up just yet.
I am so afraid though.
Bleh.
me
I loved her.Well hello there everyone.... Surprised? Im back. I know I have said previously that I would try to write more, well I am going to now because I really need to. There has been a lot going on and it is extremly hard for me to deal with. I am not exactly sure of how I am at the moment. Hopefully I can get some of my emotions out on here and figure some stuff out. Well I am out for now
